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[10 Oct 2004|04:21pm] |
You're a "Red Angel" and just because
it's red doesn't mean blood or anger.
Actually, it stands for an angel in love.
You're obsessed with one person and can't get
your mind off them and it's eating you away a
little. You'd do anything for them and wait
patiently for the day they return the feelings.
You're a hopeless romantic and little things
like roses and hugs charm you. You're very
affectionate but you're shy. You're afraid of
getting rejected. Think if it this way, the
brave may not live forever but the catious
never live at all. Don't be afraid to show your
feelings. (If you can't see tje pics, go to my
homepage and look near the bottom and find your
result)
What Color Angel are You? (PICTURES)
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[06 Oct 2004|05:35pm] |
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meh..
i gave raquel razors..god! wat was i thinking???!!!! i dunno anymore.. i dunno why i didnt just thro em away..
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:29 PM]: i gave raquel a tin with like 7 unused razors in it
CorpsESlayeD [5:30 PM]: I heard, why the fuck did you do that?
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:30 PM]: i dont know..something told me to
CorpsESlayeD [5:30 PM]: .... what the fuck? why? god
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:30 PM]: i sed dont yell!
CorpsESlayeD [5:31 PM]: well I can't help it. You don'tw ant her cutting but you gave her fucking razors??
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:31 PM]: she sed she wont use em...lies....meh..i wasnt thinking this morning
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:31 PM]: maybe i gave them to her cuz...
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:32 PM]: cuz i was afraid i might use them!
CorpsESlayeD [5:32 PM]: throw them away, don't make her problems worse
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:32 PM]: i know..
stupid tinia! grrrrrrr.....im messed up i think..i dunno. i feel like my brain is gonna goo ka BOOM! well yea, my day was okay.. boring as hell tho..i had to give em to sumone..i wasnt thinking i was afraid id use tose razors so i gave to a cutter...damn! wats wrong with me??
Tinia
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[05 Oct 2004|08:07pm] |
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100 Questions For Your Answering Pleasure! | Created by CrazySue and taken 10045 times on bzoink! | | Basics | | Name: | Tinia lyn smith | | Age: | 14 | | Height: | 5-8 | | Hair Color: | purple/blue | | Eye Color: | brown/green | | School Life | | What's your school's mascot? | a bulldog? i think | | School color(s)? | red and black | | G.P.A.? | looooow | | Who is your favorite teacher? | mrs.dewdanski | | What do they teach? | scuplture | | Is this your favorite class? | sure | | Internet | | Do you use any instant messengers? | yea | | If so, which ones? | AOL/ AIM | | About how many hours a day do you spend online? | more then 1 | | Do you have a digital camera? | no | | If so, do you post pictures of yourself online? | i do..scanners work wonders | | Music | | Do you play any instruments? | no | | If so, what one(s)? | none | | 3 Favorite Genres Of Music: | pop punk, light punk, meatlish stuff | | 3 Favorite Bands: | Marilyn manson, Good Charlotte, Blindside | | Do you go to concerts and/or shows? | no | | What is the most you've ever spent on a concert/show? | nothing | | What is the least you've ever spent? | nothing | | Do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny? | yes! very | | Do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit to listening to? | no | | Did you notice the grammatical error in question 29? | nah | | Word Association | | Blue: | eyes | | Camera: | pictures | | Boy: | mathew meimiec | | Pretty: | ME! | | Pants: | tripp NYC | | Music: | LOUD | | God: | anti-christ XD | | Sweater: | cold | | Live Journal: | i got one of those too! | | MTV: | no music..meh | | Labels: | | Do you think labels are dumb? | hellZ yea | | Why or why not? | u coant use a word to place a person... | | What do people label you as? | 'goth', 'punk', 'emo' | | How/Why did you get this label? | the way i dress | | Which Is Worse? | | Physical Pain/Emotional Pain? | neither..both hurt | | Blink-182/Good Charlotte? | i love em both | | Being Deaf/Being Blind? | being deaf | | Being Bored/Rushing around because you have too much to do? | being rushed | | Losing your dominant leg/Losing your dominant arm? | lsoing ur arm | | Love | | Do you believe theres a difference between "love" and "in love"? | yes i do | | Is it better to have loved and lossed than to have never loved at all? | totally | | Are you romantic? | hopelessly | | Are you in a relationship now? | no | | If so, for how long? | im not | | If not, how long have you been single? | 2 weeks | | Are you a virgin? | yes | | What song describes your love life right now? | watching you by melissa etheridge | | Ranomosity | | War: Good or Bad? | depends | | What do you think of designer labels? | i dont..but TRIPP NYC rox | | Who's skankier: Britney Spears or Paris Hilton? | paris | | What is it with guys and cars? | they both can run fast ..even on low fuel | | Do you sing? | no | | If so, what part (Soprano 1,Alto 2, et cetera)? | huh? | | Kiss or hug? | hug! | | What color is your room? | off white | | How old is your mom? | 34 | | Black and white or color photos? | black and white pix are sexyer | | Who cuts your hair? | professionals | | What color is your toothbrush? | blue | | What color is your hair brush? | black and silver | | What kind of hair products do you use? | gel, hair spray, hair dye | | Is K-Mart just the poor man's Wal-Mart? | sure | | Are you sXe? | HELLS YEA! | | Are you sexy? | nahh | | What color to people tells you looks nice on you? | purple | | What color do you think looks nice on you? | black, purple, red, pink | | Clothes shopping or grocery shopping? | i got clothes so grocery shopping | | Who do you sit with at lunch? | | Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back? | no | | Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know? | william clarks III | | What is the website for one of your favorite bands? | www.zeromancer.com | | Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you? | older and same age | | Do you listen to songs on repeat often? | yes | | Who was the last person you hung out with? | matt and raquel | | What did you and that person do? | chill in my room | | Do you use internet shorthand (i.e. "lol", "brb", "jk", et cetera)? | yes | | How often do you bathe? | every other day | | Are you a people-pleaser? | umm i dunno | | Do you dye your hair regularly? | yes | | What about your eyebrows? | nahh | | Do you wear makeup? | eyeliner..yea | | If you answered "yes", to #96, are you female? | imma girl..yup | | Do you buy CDs edited or unedited? | both | | Can you beatbox? | no | | Does your mom like the song "Hey Ya" by OutKast? | yes... | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
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[03 Oct 2004|11:10am] |
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im not gonna use this journal anymore..im using my GJ..ill read ur entries but ill use my other journal..ill update every once and a while..out.
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[03 Oct 2004|10:48am] |
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yesterday, i talked on the fone with matt and raquel for 2 hours and 22 minutes about i dont remember..LOL..then i walked to raquels and we went to see SHARK TALE around 7:30..that is a kick ass kids' movie..LOL..after, we sat in the restuarnt part thingi and sum cute goth-looking dude came over and sat with us for a few and told us bout his band and invited us to a concert october 9th in southwick...sounds cool but i bet i wont go >.< but yea, it was a OK day..we didnt kidnap matt like we wanted to but oh well..mu mummie woke me up with sunlight pouring into my room..argh..i hate sunlight. argh..my LJ is bothering me, it wont let people post comments..does anyone know how to fix that? idk wat i did or wat happened...meh. yummmmmmmm, Dunkin Donuts hot chocolate..LOL...well thats all for now..byeeeeeee
**TiniA**
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[30 Sep 2004|06:34pm] |
MARILYN MANSON LYRICS
"Speed Of Pain"
They slit our throats
Like we were flowers
And our milk has been devoured
When you want it
It goes away too fast
Times u hate it
It always seems to last
But just remember when you think you're free
The crack inside you fucking heart is me
[thought, not spoken:] I wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day
I wish I could sleep
But I can't lay on my back
Because ther's a knife
For everyday that I've known you
When you want it
It goes away yoo fast
Times u hate it
It always seems to last
But just remember when you think you're free
The crack inside your fucking heart is me
[thought, not spoken:] I wanna outrace the speed of pain for another day
Lie to me, cry to me, give to me
I would
Lie with me, die with me, give to me
I would
Keep all your secrets wrapped in dead hair
I hope at least we die holding hands for always
*i love that song* its kinda idk..i like it..
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[30 Sep 2004|05:51pm] |
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What a day...lol..yeah right..
my day was boring. as it usually is.LOL.. Stared at will all during physical science. its hard not to, hes sooo hott..LOL.
anyways, my cousin, mandy, is pregnant again! yay! everyone sed she couldnt cuz of some medical thing..but now shes having her seond kid! shes only a few weeks but still...YAY!
I seem to being along with alot of people at highschool. Everyone seems prett cool. sept this prep dude named nick..hes in my health class. other than that, highschools okay. better then i thought it would. ive been in school a month and freshmen year isnt as bad as i thought it would be. its better to make it seem worse so when it happens, it seems soo much better..LOL..i realized that with other things.
I have a few more frinds then i did last year:::
-Chealsa
-MATT***
-Alyssa
-Dom
-Val
-Pat (i talk to him more this year)
-Ally
-Alex
-Christel
..tehe.its all good! I still got my amyness, raquel, my cute lil eddie, and thats bout it. I still talk to other people from SMS but not really too much. Life is good. I got my friends, my awesome hair LOL, my music, a totally awesome ex BF that i love to pieces still and i can tell anything to, and i got my family. thats all i need right now.
anyways, i dont talk to taylor anymore, no loss at all. true, this sounds messed but, i went out with her to prove to myself i didnt care for matt, didnt work. all i did was feel like i hurt him tho i didnt. but watever. Certain people i can do with out, others..others i need like i need my poetry, it keeps me here as do they ^__^
OMG! i actally fell alssep in school today..LOL..i never do that. it was during health, wat a nice, well deserved nap. now i see why matt likes taking those naps during class instead of writing to me >.< LOL, its all good. i mean it...it is!!!!
well, i guess thats all for now. im gonna go do watever. like sleep or sumthing...laterZ y'all crazy people that i love to death..
+++PEACES+++
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[29 Sep 2004|05:29pm] |
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~*Its a poem i wrote 4 matt...he better like it*~
Im everything you once had.
Im everything you once wanted.
I was once what I always wanted to be, happy.
I want it all back.
Just give me a second chance.
I miss the smile I'd show you everyday
and the smile you showed me.
All I want is to be happy, and have you
back, in my arms where you belong.
She may oneday love you,
But will she love you the way I do still?
Will she care about you the way I do still?
Will she understand you the way I can?
Could she ever take the place in your heart where I
once was?
Can she?
Will she?
Would you let her?
Im still here for you, and I'll never leave.
Im your friend, from now until everything stops.
I miss your hand that has always shakey.
I miss the feelings I'd have.
Im still part of you.
Im still yours.
You're still mine.
This will never change any of this.
Why?
Because I love you too much.
It's a feeling I'll never let go.
I'll keep it as you did my heart.
What to do now, I only wish I knew.
I am a broken heart,
A hopeless romantic,
A fool,
A lover,
Yours.
That is what I am,
from now until forever and ever.
You're my broken heart..
You're my second chance.
So please, I beg of you,
let me have it all back...Please.
Lat me feel alive again, please,
This is all I ask from you.
Just to love me again,
to smile that certian way again,
that everything.
I just want it all back.
Im the heart you broke.
Im the notes you throw away.
Im the lies you told me.
Im the hope you left behind.
Im everything, Im everywhere.
Im labels and unworthy,
of much feeling you gave me.
Im all yours.
Im the secret words in the closet that I wanna
say to you, should have said to you.
Im the scars I never had.
Im the screams in the hall.
The gossips on the bathroom walls.
Im a lost soul, searching for painless
feeling.
Im dead as far as being loved goes.
Whisper those words, the ones you said to me
once or twice.
Im that friday you killed me.
Im that wednesday we were first together.
Im all the days I had you.
Im pained and unsilenced, allowed to
speak my thoughts.
Im this poem with all fixings of a love.
Im this poem that tells you how I feel for you.
In simpler words, Im everything you once had,
Everything I dont want to be, Im alone with only the
hope of having you again.
~~~Matt~~~
I love you. u still care for me, u sed so urself. this whole thing is eating at me. read this poem, attempt to understand wat u r putting me thro still. idk wat to do or wat to say 2 u right now sept i want u to be happy, matt. and i want me to be happy. u sed ud be with me if u werent with crystal. that means ud wed still be together maybe if..idk..maybe we did need this break up to make us understand and realize things. wat those things are, idk, but maybe you do, do ya????? i only wish i knew how this is all to end. you may not know, and neither do i. but we're going to understand this whole thing oneday. memeber wat u sed bout saturday a few days ago? and wat u sed bout us in my room, memeber?????? think of that and the good things u told me wen we were 2gether. just tell wat im to do. tell me all those good things agin. well im gonna stop now cuz i could go on forever..LOL...
x0x0x0x i love you, matt....
my day was boring but at the end of the day, like the middle of 6th period, this kid spit or thro gum in my hair. my mum got it out but it hurt like MOFO..LOL...anyways, thats my fun filled day rite there. everyone loves my hair colour, well, colours, its light purple, dark purple, pink, white,blue..its tis awesome man..LOL. i smell pizza or something cooking..yummmmi...food. i havent eaten sense i stole some stix things w/ cheese...damn, those things are the bestest snackish food junk stuff ever!!LOL...if y'all cant tell, im kinda hyper, for wat reason?? Idk >.< lol....
*sigh*
well...soda helps..its so tasty...i love it..pepsi..yay..LOL...anyways yea..im bored. i was walking down the hall after school with raquel and i saw taylor and walked by her i was like *cough bitch cough* LOL...aha..that was great..idk why i did that i felt like calling someone a bitch and i dont like her much but whateva..not my issue. ..OMG! i smell cucumbers!!!!!!!!!! i want em! oh wait..we dont have cucumbers..hmmm..*thinks real hard*..OWWWWWWWW..thinkings painful...
long ass LJ entry its cuz of the poem for matt...LOL..oh well.
hey! raquel- you and matt wanna chill friday or saturday or both days? we could chill at ur house cuz last time, we were here..LOL....well w/e..
Im gonna go do watever i was doing...b4....laterZ all y'all crazy..People..love to all..
sept taylor.. >.<
*~*~TiniA~*~*
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| ANSWER THEM AS A COMMENT..THANX |
[26 Sep 2004|08:57pm] |
-Do you think im cute?
-Would you ever go out with me?
-What part of me do you like bestest?
-What part do you not like?
-Am i annoying?
-would ever hold me if i was sad? Do you want to?
-Have you ever lied to me? about wat?
-Why are you my friend?
-Why are you answering these questions?
-Friendship wise, why are you by my side?
-DO you regret anything you ever did to me? wat?
-Do you wish you could change it or take it back?
-have you ever seen me cry?
***ANSWER ALL PLZ AND THANKIES***
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[25 Sep 2004|08:39am] |
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Friday-i woke up, went to school. Boring ass day as usual. Nothing interesting at all. I got home, saw mommy. she bought me new clothes and a 2 bracelets and a necklace. After we went to SALLYS to get purple hair dye then to BIGLOTS and i got an Anarchy shoulder bag thingie and OCC socks..theyre pink with flames..soo cute. LOL..Dyed my hair obviously..omg its so sexy.
*she was being really nice. my mum i mean. It was kinda weird but whatever.*
Today-woke up at 7am, got dressed and did my hair for no reason. had breakfats now im here. watched the bowling for soup 1985 music video..soo weird.talking to taylor's friends josh..my day so far.
And aparently we're suppost to go to look at pppies or sumthing...YAY! thatd be cool. Mommy sed our land lord sed it was okay to get one, a dog..LOL..yay!
thats the last two days..i cant remember monday through thursday but whatever..
last night, me, raquel, and matt talked on 3 way..that was sooo much fun. thats was just too great. it was an hour and 16 minutes of screaming, laughing, insults, and random other shit...funny as hell tho.
I want more music..ahh hha! the list:
~sugarcult-start static/ palm trees and power lines
~3 days grace- self titled
~zeromancer- zzyzx/ clone ur lover/ euro trash
~yellowcard- ocean avenue
~Switchfoot- the beautiful letdown
..ANYWAYS..thats my day so far...be back laterZ..
^^Tinia^^
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[17 Sep 2004|03:29pm] |
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:34 PM]: idk if i wanna talk to u but i will
CorpsESlayeD [2:34 PM]: I'm sorry
CorpsESlayeD [2:34 PM]: I don't mean to hurt you like this.. it hurt me too..
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:35 PM]: but can i ask you something matt?
CorpsESlayeD [2:35 PM]: yeah
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:35 PM]: everything u sed, every nice word, did u mean it or did u just change ur mind over night?
CorpsESlayeD [2:36 PM]: I meant what I said.. I have feelings for you tinia... but it really was rushed, I wasn't ready to go out with you.. I was hesitent, but I wanted to make you happy. It's not like I wasn't happy being with you either
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:36 PM]: well?
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:36 PM]: u should have sed so
CorpsESlayeD [2:37 PM]: but I didn't want to hurt you, and I did like being with you, and everything, but it was just too soon. I mean we where just talking online, and then all of a sudden it was like so are we bf and gf... I wasn't quite ready, but I said yeah
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:38 PM]: i cried...people that are worth ur tears will never make you cry..thats an old saying..and up til now, it was right
CorpsESlayeD [2:39 PM]: I'm sorry.. I didn't want to lead you on any longer.
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:40 PM]: sorry is just word matt..these are feelings that were killed not just words
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:40 PM]: as much as i dont wanna forgive you..i will try
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:41 PM]: i told u i loved you...
CorpsESlayeD [2:42 PM]: I know how you felt about me, that just made me not want to give up on you even more because of the way you would feel. But I had to do it, I can't live a lie. I like you a whole lot, but we just weren't boyfriend girlfriend material in my eyes
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:42 PM]: next time say something bout that...
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:43 PM]: i sed i loved you b4 and i still mean it...feelings dont just go away.
CorpsESlayeD [2:43 PM]: I would have, but I really hate hurting people's feelings.. I just want everyone to be happy, but that includes me
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:44 PM]: i understand im the same way..i liked it tho...being in ur arms everytime u hugged me..im gonna miss that
CorpsESlayeD [2:44 PM]: I don't mind hugging you, I still will. I hug all my friends now, if they want one.
CorpsESlayeD [2:45 PM]: I'm not trying to say I hate you and never want to see you again
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:45 PM]: i cant look at u anymore
CorpsESlayeD [2:45 PM]: I'm sorry
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:45 PM]: i tried but i cant..i cant even look at ppl idk holding hands.
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:46 PM]: mental break downs arent cool
CorpsESlayeD [2:47 PM]: no they're not.
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:48 PM]: u cuased me one of the worst feelings i have ever felt matt..i still love you but i cant love you..i wont be able to look at u monday
CorpsESlayeD [2:49 PM]: I know.. but if I let this go any longer, and then I said so. It would have been worse. I had to tell you.
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:49 PM]: i know thats wat chealsa sed..u told me ud never wanna loose me..
CorpsESlayeD [2:50 PM]: I know I said that, and I still don't. i don't want to lose you. I never do.
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:51 PM]: well u had my heart then ripped it out matt..so u might as well have lost me
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:53 PM]: dont worry..im not gonna die..
CorpsESlayeD [2:53 PM]: I know.. I shouldn't have taken your heart to begin with. I didn't deserve it.
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:53 PM]: yes u did..
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:54 PM]: everything i sed to u i meant...i gave ur something i give few ppl...and u killed it..
CorpsESlayeD [2:54 PM]: I know... I didn't want to kill it, but it would have been hurting both of us if I let it go on
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:55 PM]: do we ever have a another shot at being together again like in a few years?
CorpsESlayeD [2:55 PM]: I can say there's definatley a possibility
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:56 PM]: i take it ur gonna go w/ this crystal chick
CorpsESlayeD [2:56 PM]: I might.. I don't know
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [2:56 PM]: cuz i wont be able to look at u
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:00 PM]: was everything a lie matt?
CorpsESlayeD [3:00 PM]: no
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:00 PM]: then how was it so easy for u to rid of it??
CorpsESlayeD [3:01 PM]: it wasn't easy at all
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:01 PM]: in a fucking letter no less
CorpsESlayeD [3:02 PM]: well it was the only way I could get it out.. I couldn't stand telling it to your face
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:02 PM]: ahh..i get it..
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:02 PM]: i wanna do something ll regret forever.
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:02 PM]: ill*
CorpsESlayeD [3:02 PM]: if it involves hurting yourself, don't
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:03 PM]: ur smart matt
CorpsESlayeD [3:04 PM]: I know
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:04 PM]: its gonna say heart cuz mine was ripped and broken
CorpsESlayeD [3:05 PM]: make me feel even worse why don't you .. I'm sorry you're upset.. you have every reason to be, but this wasn't easy for me
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:05 PM]: im sorry
CorpsESlayeD [3:07 PM]: no, I'm sorry for what I did to you.
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:07 PM]: its my fault
CorpsESlayeD [3:07 PM]: don't say that
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:08 PM]: why? it is..if not for me pushing us together, this would have never happened
CorpsESlayeD [3:09 PM]: I don't want you blaming yourself for this
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:09 PM]: well i have to to feel better
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:10 PM]: crazy i know
CorpsESlayeD [3:11 PM]: I would think you would feel worse
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:12 PM]: i feel like dying
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:13 PM]: and i probally will try..i had a feeling this all would happen
CorpsESlayeD [3:13 PM]: god don't even go there
CorpsESlayeD [3:13 PM]: don't
CorpsESlayeD [3:13 PM]: please.. don't
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:13 PM]: wat am i suppost to do matt?
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:14 PM]: tell wat im suppost to do
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:14 PM]: i need to be held but even if u were here, i couldnt be
CorpsESlayeD [3:15 PM]: well first of all you're not supposed to try to hurt yourself or kill yourself. You have to try to get over it, there is nothing I can do. But hurting yourself is not the answer to life's problems
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:15 PM]: telling me to just get over it? nice..
CorpsESlayeD [3:16 PM]: you're going to have to get over it some day, you can't live the rest of your life wanting to kill yourself
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:16 PM]: ..i know..
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:17 PM]: ur still my world..and i still love you..know that when u dat crystal..when u go and kiss her..know that
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:17 PM]: date*
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:19 PM]: know that ill forigvre u
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:19 PM]: i gtg
CorpsESlayeD [3:19 PM]: ok
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:20 PM]: call me
CorpsESlayeD [3:20 PM]: ... call you?
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:20 PM]: yes
CorpsESlayeD [3:20 PM]: I can't right now, I have like 5 minutes before I go on my paper route
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:20 PM]: after ur route
CorpsESlayeD [3:21 PM]: ok, I'll try.. but are you sure you want to talk to me
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:21 PM]: yes
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:22 PM]: do u memeber the number
CorpsESlayeD [3:22 PM]: remind me
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:22 PM]: 562-1326 call that 1
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:22 PM]: cuz my aunt needs her fone
CorpsESlayeD [3:22 PM]: ok
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:23 PM]: dont forget..its important
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:23 PM]: VERRRRY
CorpsESlayeD [3:23 PM]: ok
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:23 PM]: promise ull call??
CorpsESlayeD [3:23 PM]: ok I promise
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:24 PM]: ok....that promise u must keep
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:24 PM]: byee
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:24 PM]: idk if i should say i love you
CorpsESlayeD [3:24 PM]: bye
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:24 PM]: cuz i really want to
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:24 PM]: um bye
CorpsESlayeD [3:24 PM]: bye
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:25 PM]: ..yea..bye..talk to u soon
CorpsESlayeD [3:25 PM]: yep
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:25 PM]: okies XD
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:25 PM]: ill be happy i pormise
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [3:25 PM]: :-\
CorpsESlayeD [3:26 PM]: ok...
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im single....boys suck...hes an asshole...need i say more? well i will. matt broke up with me. things were rushed with him, i realize that. its all my fault. i cried in school..i havent cried in school sense i was like...6. Chealsa talked to me and convinced me to not do what i was SERIOUSLY planning to do. she made me laugh and i still dunno what im suppost to do. i was ready to give him my heart but he just ripped it out and killed that. well thats that....y'all get it..im out..
have fun livng your pathetic lies you call life cuz one day your best feeling will be ripped from ur chest.
tinia..
.....In prophecy, all good things must end.
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GRRRRRR! i hate the things people are saying bout everything about me and matt...DFTA...dont fucking trust anyone. sept for a few...there...nough sed..plus im grounded til next thursday...>.<
Tinia
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fights actually make me and raquel better i think, honestly. nothing is ever perfect. I love my sister, anyone who knows me knows that. id probally die for her but i have never been put in that situation so yea..
i dunno how everyone else is but id like to know. i wish i could read peoples minds sometimes but sometimes, i wouldnt wanna know wat people think about >.<
i dunno wat else to say so yea..
~Billi~
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okay..well, raquel fucking hates me. i dont blame her. everyones going against me now. taylor is gonna hate me..but i have other friends that care alot bout me. i am lonely but i wickedly like matt. my feelings are the reasonsa everyone hates me. im sorry but i never ment to hurt my sister i never have. i love raquel but i messed up big time. i wont be able to fix it and i cant ignore wat they say bout me and i cant igonre wat i did to raquel. if anyone knew how i feel now, theyd think i was insane or something. i like matt, he likes me..true, im fucking extatic bout that but the aftermath isnt so pleasant. he can my friend, he cant replcae my sister tho, no one can. i cant fix wat i didto her and i wish i could. i wish i could be happy and have my sister be happy too. this whole deal with william and matt is confusing me but i cant help feelings so im sorry as fuck. if me and matt dont work, ill feel so fucking shitty..i doubt theyd acsept me again. i dunno wat im suppost to do now. well im goona go do whatever it is a girl that kills friendships does..
Billi
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i dont wanna make raquel mad but dude...this matt kid is awesome..flirting kinda, well, i am...LOL. I believe i have some sorta chance with him..
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:08 PM]: grrr this sux man.
CorpsESlayeD [5:08 PM]: what does?
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:09 PM]: that ill hardly ever see u sept for the few chances ill get during the sckool day/year...grrrrr
CorpsESlayeD [5:09 PM]: well never know I might come out of my room here and there too lol
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:10 PM]: would u?
CorpsESlayeD [5:10 PM]: yeah prob
MiStAkEsRmAkeUp [5:10 PM]: for me?
CorpsESlayeD [5:10 PM]: yeah
thats so sweet..i like where this is going..wooo! anyways, yea..this is so nice. i believe i finally found someone..WHO NEEDS JOSH WHEN I KINDA GOT A GUT RIGHT HERE????!!!!! so, ill be fine til i know exactly where this going so bye, gonna talk to my friend now..
Billi
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Billi sat on ground, drawing gothicly designed eyes and listening to music. she looked up at the sky as the rain fell. 'great..just great' she thought. she put her notebook into her bag and walked to the store. Just as she was about to cross, another goth girl with bright orange hair, baggy pants and a tee shirt that read: I AM YOUR JESUS with a picture of marilyn manson, walked over to her, "you should cross other there, its easier." Billi stared at her feet and didnt move. *im acara, by the way. that dude, by the tree, is jon, my boyfriend and his best freind, josh." the girl told her. Billi looked over and noticed that one with kind of long skater styled curly hair , baggy pants , and a KISS ME IM A PIRATE shirt, obviously josh, was staring at her. She smiled at him and crossed the street. Josh then walked after to Acara. "damn, girl! that..was the hott. she smiled at me" he told her. acara rolled her eyes and went over to jon and they all walked back to jon's house. meanwhile, Billi sat her porch and walked the rain fall on her army boots and the drops roll off them as she thought about josh. 'he's cute..too cute..whats he doing in a city like this and stay single? how that works, ill never know. that acara chick seemed nice. ill talk to her next time, maybe if i see her again.' she thought to herself for over 2 hours until her cell phone rang. it was acara.."sorry for calling you but a girl that claims to be your ex gave it to me." Billi smurked. "oh..her.thats just korey. dont mind her, and u were in ur right one, you'd stay away from her. i hate her." billi said. 'wow! thats the most i said in 3 months' she thought. So for well over 2 hours, her and acara talked about past relations and hopes of new ones. "..yea, jons awesome. i love him. i couldnt ask for more. but josh, josh seems to like you. you sound like his type." "maybe i am or just looking for some..well, ya know." billi replied. acara and billi burst out laughing. "hey, my 'rents are away for the rest of the week, you three wanna come over?" acara said yes and gave the 'good news' to josh. billi heard josh jump and yelled, "WOOOOOOOO!!!!! a hott chick..finally!"
Fir the hour before they got to billi's house, she wrote a poem about her feelings and how she hopes josh will make her feel. she changed into a knee-high shirt with chains and straps all over it, a long sleeved fish net shirt and a shirt to her waist that read: ..AND NOW WITH YOUR PERMISSON, I'M GONNA FALL DOWN NOW and spiked her hair and left her bangs the way the were, down and untouched. Just as she was tying her army boot, her doorbell rang. "come in!" she yelled. Acara and jon, hand in hand, and josh walked in. Josh looked around the house at everything then found his stare drop and land ontop of billi. Billi smiled and hoped this 'thing' with josh will turn into something amazing.
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